Unwindulax!

Our neighbor fiend came over again today and the little ones had a blast painting with the paints she brought over! The older kids made a blanket fort in the living room and banned the little kids from it after they knocked it down! I find it hilarious, although the kids took the situation all too seriously. One of the reasons I love kids, their biggest problem is having their blanket get knocked off the table! That's fantastic! They calmed down when I told them they could rebuild it tonight and sleep in the front room! <3

After the neighbor friend left, I got the kids ready and they headed over to the after school program, my friend offered to watch them so I could go to a therapist on campus after my friend had an episode at my apartment and got sent to the mental hospital. Nobody was hurt. She is never violent and I know she would never hurt anyone. She gets scared and runs like a mad woman, which scares other people who call the police which really scares my friend! It's a vicious cycle, but I won't get into on here. The point is they offered free therapy and I said heck yes! My opinion is everyone could use a good therapy session once in a while no matter what your mental state is! It's just as important as going to the doctor or church or school. You want to be healthy mentally as well as physically, spiritually and intellectually! Or at least I do.

Obviously I won't get into details here (although everything I told her I'm pretty sure I already blabbed all over Facebook and Blogger anyway!!) but something I got away from it, the one thing that made me open up like a knife to a watermelon (sorry I just had watermelon, it was so good!) was when she said,"I can tell you're a very caring person because of how concerned you are with your friend but what about YOU. How are you taking care of yourself? How are YOU doing?"

I literally broke into tears.

I'm always taking care of other people making sure they're alright and I'm constantly ignoring my own needs and that it becomes a problem for me sometimes and my mind begins to flood with everything I do for others but when it came to myself, I put stuff I enjoy or need on the back burner. I told her as tears streamed down my face that I had been a mother since I was sixteen and that I've always taken care of people and it came so naturally to me. I know I'm not a selfish person but its come to he point where I get stressed out because I need to find some kind of a balance.

I hadn't thought about selflessness being a bad thing before! Not bad, but not good for your mental health.

Anyway, it was good for me to realize that I need to consider my and my family's NEEDS before taking on someone else's issues. I also can't be her friend, her mother, and her therapist so I'm going to have to chose friend.

Shane came home and showed me today's fortune! Looks like we will be heading on a vacation not soon enough for the world of fortune cookies!

Sorely needed.

Peace, love, unwindulax!

Another late night post! Still counts as Monday.

Today was a long day. 

Went to bed at 3:30am last night because Shane and I couldn't help but finish off season 4 of Justified on FX. Such a good show, I mean well done. Great writing, fun interesting relatable characters, exciting cinematography, interesting story lines, the list goes on! Anyway, season four finished up this spring and now we have to wait for January? Maybe, to watch season five!!! It's so depressing!! I get all attached to these characters and then they make me wait so long for them to come back and then they kill off my favorites and I wanna strangle the writers, mind you I'm talking about several different tv series I'm watching recently...

Enough about that.

After going to bed at 3:30, I wake up at 8:45 to watch a neighborhood friend for the day, not usually so bad, only she was having a tough morning :-(

Then at 3 I email the daycare center where willow goes while I'm in school to tell them I can't find my paperwork for re-registering for this year and she tells me I needed it this morning!! I didn't even know that! I keep missing these time details! I already missed two previous appointments for the registration, so I'm pretty frustrated by this situation. I just try and tell myself everything is going to work out. I really do think it will just work out perfectly fine in the end. Where's the end? That's the problem. It's far away.

Anyway, I end up taking a nap that lasts three hours while my kids indulge in television, minecraft, and Popsicles, and I wake up just as tired as before :-( 

I make fish sticks and Mac n cheese for dinner which makes up for the homemade waffles with homemade butter honey sauce that I made from scratch for lunch today! They were super good! Oh I have a photo :-)

1953 reprint of the better homes and gardens new cookbook. I absolutely love it!

Anyway, Shane comes home and helps me feed the kiddos and get them ready for bed then I run out and use the free entrée coupons Shane won at Pei Wei! Which is super cool because I never feel like anybody really wins those business card drawings! The coolest part about our meal was the fortunes we each got.

I don't remember if I mentioned that Shane is preparing to defend his thesis to get his PhD this month or next month, but he's been hard at work! And I've been trying to plan our road trip family vacation that we may not get to go on if he has to defend sooner rather than later. But these recent worries are the reason I liked the fortunes so much! Here they are, Shane's is on top and mine is on the bottom!

I don't know about warm water, but I like the sound of that word "soon"!!

Then after we ate I went to the grocery store with the older kids, which I probably won't do this late at night anymore... Got some food for lunch and breakfast and dinner tomorrow. We are having the new sister missionaries over for dinner! I'm excited to talk to them more. I love the sisters! Mostly because I can feed them and have them over without Shane being there (since his schedule is so out of whack I never know when he's gonna be home!)

Then at around 11pm I visited my friend who is not well and just got out if the hospital, helped her clean up her house a little and listened to her problems, gave her a hug and then went by the grocery store again to pick up the things I forgot to get the first time and by the time I got home it was 1am. Now that I've finished my blog post it's about 2am and I have been awake for 17 hours with only five hours of sleep from the night before!! Oh and eating makes me nauseous but I'm still overweight. Sorry I may as well throw that last part in! 

In spite if these things, I know God is taking care of me and helping me do what I need to do. I know at the end of the day I have a beautiful family to come home to and warm bed to sleep in and I am so grateful for that.